I don’t think I’ve ever felt more empowered, confident, and happy as an artist in my life after today’s Meisner class.
This morning I PMS cried in a corner of Logan for 20 minutes. I had an SCC appointment for the worst cough I’ve ever had and they couldn’t give me anything for it. Heidi forgot we had a 9 AM meeting and it turns out I could have said everything I needed to in a short email. I was having a lousy day.
Enter Audrey at 1:30 PM. Immediately I was called upon to do my absolute best, with no bullshit tolerated. At first I was coughing and feeling down on myself, but then I cut the self pity and tried my hardest. I did a fucking amazing scene. And at the end of class I got a compliment and an inspiring speech. She inspired the shit out of me.
Then I went to an arts roundtable with the Dean of the College. I told him to give us more funding for core arts classes so everyone on campus could participate in the arts programs, which is a huge problem with the arts requirement at the moment. Everyone agreed with me. He listened, and said it would happen. And I brought the idea to the table. ME. I contributed immensely to the arts at UChicago today, and all because of Audrey.
She pushed me to my breaking point, and I wanted to go there again. I want to go there over and over again because by doing that, she pushed me to do more than I thought I ever could. I fucking love this class. I never have to apologize for being anything but myself. No bullshit. I feel like a real artist for the first time.